BLUR BLUR ME...

How blur is my blur? i wonder....
Too blur i guess...
always with the look like never wake up from bed most of the times...
always response with 'huh, what happened?"...
That why people said i am a "blurqueen"...

Why blur?
I blur because i don't want to know too much of thing.
The more i know something, or the more i know the reality, the more i will feel SAD..
When the world is too reality, people and thing surrounding become UGLY..
Therefore, i always lie to myself..'no, it is not true, it should not be like that'..and my brain always in hibernate status...and eventually, my look become blur blur often..hehehe(sound like i give a bad excuses for my 'blur')...but sound logic rite??!!
Blur always make me feel and have illusion that world is so BEAUTIFUL...kekekeke

But that not good for my image..i know that very well..but..How?..This is ME..hiii..(as i won't felt happy, if i hiding myself)..

I LOVE TO BE MYSELF!..:)

Mmm..will i change ONE day?!!

朋友的经验告诉我

喜欢一个人其实是不需要理由的 无论他现在对你如何的不好 你也会为他找无数的理由来填补他的不好 因为你享受以前那种被他疼的感觉 一直迷恋于这种感觉而不愿就此放开一切 就这样一而再，再而三 的宽容他的不忠 他的背叛。。。
只要他曾经对你很好而你当时也很享受这种被疼的感觉 也就是说你一旦爱上了 就很难脱离不再爱他了

突然间想写就写了！嘻嘻嘻

mEmoRiable Trips..

Well, I seem like a busy bug recently, which go here and there in the weekends...and have took a lot photos, which going the most valuable and memoriable stuff for us.



1st, Ipoh trip-gua tempurung.

2nd, Monkey beach

3rd, pantai kerachut at morning and autocity's concert at night.

4th, Titikerawang Water fall at morning and Bon Odori at night.

My friends and life in MOT-

Last eight month, i have join a teambuiding organized by Motorola, and it is held at Pangkor...


We have had the fun moment in the Pangkor Trip.


Susan, Shu Fen and I...laugh non-stop along the Pangkor Trip..hahahaha..(i know it was already pass for quite a long time, but trust me, i still remember it very well...as Ai Ying always have a powerful memory for the past..hehehe:)

Shu fen, Susan and I were inside the ship..hehe

I still remember that time, I came Motorola not more than 2 month, and have the opporturnity to join this Pangkor Trips. But then, i heard a bad news from my new colleagues, carrie, she want to resign, she is the one who joined MINT team same time as me, sit beside me. I quite sad time that time, coz going to lose a nice colleague. Although we just met, but can get along very well. I joined the MINT team and have make new friends with two of my colleagues, one is carry and another one is Susan. At first, I always think that Susan is our senior, and there is always a gap between us. But then, after a while, revolution happen, not only the relationship but the whole MINT team...

Before MINT team revolution,got me, susan and carrie..

After Carrie left Motorola, I found another new recruited colleague will be my UTAR best friend, Tan Siau Hun...oh mine...is was really a BIG and GREATEST news for me...Last time, we was studied together, often eat lunch/dinner together, went shopping together, having the same activity most of the time... suddenly i become a great CNN, i want to share this good news with all of my friends and family...connie, seok pheng, siau jun, joey, bee yee and othersss...hehehe...

After a few month, i received a bad news again, I felt shocked when Susan going to leave Motorola... I shocked because I am going to be a senior among other new colleagues...'OH NO!!"...After a while, i felt quite OK...and just continues to work as normal...hehehe.. At Susan's last day in Motorola, my feeling is just 'numb', which no sad or any other feeling...i wondering..hahahaha...But then, when i was proceeds to the parking lots and prepared to go home, don't know why, my tears suddenly drop out....At that moment, i started to know that... i will very miss her and she can be a good friend of mine...(Because, Ai Ying won't simply crying for others, unless, the person is very meant to her)...

The new replacement come in, named Amber, For the first sight, she is always sleepy, and have an attitude of 'sambil lewa'..but then, after knowing her for a few weeks, she actually a good workers and are talented in many things as well...Seem like she is liking by everyone, especially a creatures on the earth named 'MAN" hehehe...May be is seldom for them to recognize a young pretty lady who is passionate like her...hehehe...We have outing together for a few times, and unexpectedly, i have told her so many things of mine though we just met not more than 1 month...Mine....Until now, i still quite curious about her actually, i wondering...sometimes, we can talk a lot of thing like no one business, sometimes, i can felt a kind 'block' between us which make me feel hesitated to speak out my real thought...mmhh..just let it be...

Me, Amber and Siau Hun were playing around at the beach near to my house...MINT team after revolution, got me, siau hun and amber.

Journey to Genting- II

After found the way to Outdoor themepark, We queuing-up for our first games...Mood seem like been affected?!!! erm..erm..i WONDER..
Trying to cheer them up, 'hey look at me, leng lui'..According to the fact, people will alway smile on you, when you call them "leng lui"..hehehehe..

Nearly forgot what to write lerr..hehehe..

But of course, i won't forget the happy moment in the Genting Trip...hehehehe

All the way in this trip, i can said 5% is unhappy moment, 20% is very high moment, 70% is happy moment, 5% is boring moment.

We reached the sky transfer station, is around 12 something, and queuing for so long... i queuing until going to fall asleep...oh mine...There are so many foreigner and they bring along their cutie kids... I found a good way to rest while we are queuing, that is 'grab' connie's shoulder who stand in front of me, closed my eyes and my legs just move whatever she is move. After few seconds, Siau Jun yelled our names,"hey, aiying and connie, got lot of people look at u both la, you both must be look pretty, that why they keep on look at you both.." Then only i open my eyes and realised that people look at us as if that i am a blind person who follow a friend to Genting. Abrupt, i open my eyes bigger than ever, trying to clear out this mis-understanding. heheheeh..

Siau Jun was behind us that time, that why she did not aware that i have closed my eyes and think that people watching on us just because we both look pretty...hahahaha..

Finally, we reached Genting, we all felt very hungry and eat 1901 hot dogs breads...unluckily, accidentally, i did order breads with 'beef' inside, worth rm 7 something...but it is already made and paid, i just ate it...hiiiii...actually, i am prayer for 'guan yin' and cannot eat beef.

erm...sorry ya... i WON'T ever eat 'IT' if i not yet paid for 'IT'...pls forgive me for this time..:(

We are all seldom come to Genting, and have lost for a while before reaching the outdoor themepark...hiiii...I found the environment become weird, and saw there are some changes among other's face and our mood are affected...

The 'beef' incident plus the 'lost' incident, are the mentioned 5% unhappy moment.

Genting trip stop until here, coz i found there are must more new stuff need to be updated...hehehe..

Journey to Genting- I

While waiting Genting's bus to the sky transfer station...Siau Jun take the funny and natural pic for us..hehehehe..(we didn't aware that siau jun actually have capture our photo)

Pose when eating polly pop...connie have bought it for me..so sweet...hehehe..thank ya..
Finally, siau jun pass the camera to my sis, and take pic with us..with her cool face..heheheh..

Let me describe how i feel for my journey to KL, and then Genting.

I bought the bus ticket on the spot, waiting for 1 hour before the bus come. While waiting, i listen to my handphone mp3, thinking of so many things...observing of my surrounding people and things, especially a lovely couple(foreigner). The guy talk with his partner softly, and the lady response with her sweet smile...the way they look at each other, really...(i envy for 2 seconds..hehehe)

Actually, is a good moment to let yourself relax and hibernate when you are sitting in the bus alone..at the moment you are alone&speechless, your heart will automatically felt empty...
at the moment you looking at the outside pretty scent, your soul will automatically fly over there... at the moment you listening to the lovely song, your memory will be activated automatically...

While having my day dream inside the bus, i receive a few message from my sis, connie and susan..
Sis:"When you reach KL, call me, i will come pudy to fetch you"..
Connie:"hey,when you will reach?"'..
Susan:"hey,reach d? must take care yourself"..



In the first place, i just plan to meet my sis and my beloved best fren-connie..and have call-up her only...But then, thinking' hey, why not call-up siau jun and joey as well'...
connie-is my first forest green housemate when study in UTAR, a fren that i liking so much..
siau jun and joey-are my 3rd housemate, both of them that very close to me as well in UTAR time, very miss them..
Three of them are currently work in KL, though they are comes from other state(Kedah, Penang).

I wondering what is their responses, when i suddenly call up them, and told them that i am now on the way coming to KL...Unexpectedly, their response are the same ' really? let meet up together"..sound like very happy and easily have invited them to go along Genting with me, though it is a moody Sunday..felt so 'kam dong'...

End up we meet up at sg.wang on saturday, and have eat dinner together in "kaki corner"..
We nearly lost in the city when going to 'kaki corner'..but still found the place..hehehe...
On the next day,sunday, we meet up again and proceeds to Genting...But, Joey didn't comes because of not feeling well, she said she really wanna join us..i told her' OK, i forgive you, but the other members not forgive you, how?"..hehehe..smile cunningly..she reply with a big laugh..hahaha..


will be continued...(Journey to Genting- II)..in fact, suddenly felt lazy to write..hehehe

部落格，不简单。。

真想中止我这个BLOG...觉得没什么好写的。。

其实。。

BLOG的用意是任人看的， 让人知道自己的东西多一些。。但有些是真的不想让人知道呢。。嗯。。 看来自己比较适合写日记。。嘻嘻嘻。。

但是，不让当事人知道，又很不值喔。。。

所以呢，在开不了口又想让某些人知道本身的感想，感受与意愿的唯一方法就是写BLOG...嘻嘻嘻。。高招，高招。。

可是，如果当事人根本没兴趣看您的BLOG的话，写来也无补于事的喔。。。真矛盾哪！！


唉，不过，本人暂时还没有什么难隐之处， 难以开口的东东。。。

现在的我心情不怎么好，但就是找不到确定的原因，或许，为自己渺茫的前途而烦恼吧， 也或许是为自己现今沉闷的生活而烦恼吧， 也有可能缺乏寄托感。。。总之，就不爽啦。。