Heart telling me the truth about my job

Well, it seem like god hearing what my heart's telling..
When i was worked in Motorola, i felt the job is totally not compatible with my strenght of attention to details and checking documents should be the job that best suit me..
After 2 years plus, i have found a job in Citigroup, as a doc checker, which fulfilled my requirements that time. However, it tie up my freedom completely, i have no time at all, and almost 12 hours stayed in the building and checking the documents non-stop. It really test my patients, I seldom seeing the sun-set and mostly the moon only, it is a crazy life, however, i still can stand with it and work there for 2 years. Well, it might be because of the companions that have accompany me these days, which i am not feel alone, and can stay long.
I have promised myself to change the 'no life''s life, and finally have quited the citi's job. Citi's benefit and working environment is not bad, just that the working hour is too long and exhausted. The lack of freedom's job make me decided to change my field, which from admin to sales, it is such a brave action and decision that i have made during that times. Yeah, I am now become a mortgage consultant. it seem like very free and flexible, the freedom that i have here is super nice, however,the sales target and the peoples factors are the main sources of stress of the job. This is the only job that make me feel lonely. Yes, i have freedom, but there is no one could share my happiness of being free, is all by myself.^..^..Nevertherless, i learn a lot indeed, i felt the inner growth of mine..
Now, my another concern...money matter..earn not much,but work so hard. Comparing to the other country, our purchasing power is very low...work hard,money not much..this is the main issue, which i have to think it seriously. It is not worth to work like hell everyday with just a little money. I am THINKING THINKING AND THINKING....what should i do the next?!!!

My dream(listing in year 2012)

My dream(listing in year 2012),is hard,but i believe i can make it...

1.travelling in hawaii with my family and love ones
2.buy my dream house with sea-view
3.buy a brand new car that i truely like eg. honda-insight
4.travelling with my best fren at the specific places
5.find my true love/mr.right and own happy family
6.all people i know -happy and healthy all the time

the next step---figures out to earn more money plus courage plus good plan...the most important is'QUIT CITI'S JOB!!'...

true feeling at the beginning of year 2012

Year 2012,sound new,sound yeah..but how come,my heart is upset than ever..
Deep inside my heart, i hope i can truely in love with someone i very like..
someone that able to touch my heart,touch my mind,my soul...eventually my..(100%)

quite awesome to have that kind of feeling..
when your heart is totally in touch with someone,felt so great...

However,these just a feeling,no action no future,just for fun...no commitment,and you will still have your freedom

control the feeling,is hard,but i can do it...
yes,i lack of courage,i lack of confident,and that why i alone till now..
yes,i like to dream,coz it make me happy..
yes,i am...but i can't..