想念

想念到底是怎么一回事？为什么会想念？只因这份感情早已建立了。。

我初时感受到的那份想念 是第一次离家背景去念大学时 不习惯一人在外 总觉得不对劲 所以伤心了一整天

在大学第一年，我认识到一群好朋友 大家整天玩玩闹闹 一起上学下课 吃午餐 有时一起搭巴士逛街 觉得好奇妙 很快乐
尤其是当有人说我是他的开心果时 更不得了 总觉得自己是多么的特别 总是开开心心的
开心的程度足以令我忘记了初时的"想家情怀”。。

在大学第二年， 我和那一群好友已经不再住同一个屋檐下了 我超伤心的。。第二次，很想念的感觉和回忆。。

在大学第二年中，我搬到跟另一群朋友住 他们人很好 家又大 租金又便宜 我们相处得也很融洽 很开心。。

在龙城的最后一天，我偷偷地流了好多的泪。。很不舍得。。要离开这儿 也要离开各位好朋友了
这应该是我有史以来 最伤心的一天吧 亏我流了那么多的泪

我闷闷不乐了 差不多有六个月吧 当想起他们的时候 还会发几封自创的简讯给他们呢 不错吧

六个月后， 我被录取到默多咯拉打工 认识到了两位朋友 大家蛮聊得来的 整天嘻嘻哈哈
别人还误以为我们是认识了好多年的朋友呢

没想到 才不过两个月 那位朋友就不干了 觉得好可惜 感觉落寞了一下
再过三个月 没想到 第二位朋友 也不干了 感觉无所适从
他走的那一天 我不小心掉了几滴眼泪 伤感哪。。
不过咱们可不断绝来往。。嘻嘻

第二轮回，来了两个新人。。其中一个竟是我的大学好友，觉得好不可思议呢，他一直有股让我感觉很安心的感觉，我觉得很庆幸能与他成为同事。。
而另一位 是我认识的人当中最不可思议的。。一个好难断测的人。。无论如何，我感觉到他那份真诚，对我很不错的朋友，我早已列他为我的好朋友之一了。

在默多咯拉的这些日子里 又给我认识到两位好朋友 我原以为不会再给我遇到了 却也事实难料
第三轮回，另两位新人 现在我也把他们当好友看待了。。
一个比较深思熟虑 稳重 优雅 漂亮。。很关心朋友。。有时也蛮搞笑的。。哈哈
另一个 有标致的脸孔 乐于助人 幽默搞笑 是大家的开心果。。我想应该很少人或没有人会不喜欢他吧。。哈哈

最近，那位不可思议的好友 已离开了摩托罗拉 离开了我们。。
我知道大家都依依不舍。。无论如何，我们都祝福他 找到更好的。。
我其实以为我会是麻木的 不会有什么想念的感觉，却再次证实不是。。因落寞感好重哦。。
不过 我相信 我们还会时常联络的。。
联络 从来不只属单方的哦。。希望各位好友要时常互相联络喔。。友谊万岁！！！

P.S: 世上无不散之宴席，只靠想念来维持感情

献给所有的恋人；）

或许不甘心平平淡淡
想要点轰轰烈烈
所以心里总是不怎么满意现状

不晓得前天的甜蜜有多甜蜜
昨天的酸又有多酸
因为不够全心全意的去爱

或许全心全意地爱眼前人会带给你今天的甜蜜和明天的不平凡

睡后音乐

买了个cd，周惠精选。。好好听喔。。真是名副其实的美声天后哪。。
再平凡不过的的歌词 却从他口里唱出不同凡响的歌曲来 让大家听出耳油。。
突然有股好想睡觉的冲动。。让空气随着周惠的歌声进入我的脑袋瓜 让往梦里游的我 隐隐约约中依然听见动人的音乐 身，心与灵能够完全得以休息 感觉美好极了

三思而后讲

很多时候 我讲的话或做的事 真得很惹人厌
无意间讲了些伤人的话 完全不顾及别人的感受

一直以来是这样 到现在还是这样 丝毫没改变过
一直都有好朋友在旁 提醒我 指点我 感动的同时更觉得惭愧
惭愧是因为自己那不长近的嘴巴 时常有意无意地伤人 而这些耳朵受罪的朋友却反过来劝告

三思而后讲 真的是我应常记挂在心的金句

一直以来 我自认是个很好的人 很想在朋友面前 扮演着一个真真实实的自己 毫无掩饰
毫无虚假 要讲就讲 要这样就这样 完全不顾别人地感受 更无视别人对我的想法
可称得上是我行我素的人 我想。。动作大而不做作 是我一直以来带给别人的形象吧

我以为这样的我 才是真正的我 真正的我会是个带给大家欢笑的 会是别人的开心果
但原来这却是错的想法 在别人眼中 这样的我 讲话不经大脑 得罪人也不知 还自认 很风趣呢。。哈

如果有一天 我变了 我变得不再乱讲话 不再那么鲁莽 变成一个很有礼貌和高高在上的人
会有人觉得 我深不可测 或 虚假吗
这么一个自我规律和严谨的我 还会找到交心的好朋友吗？这样的我会开心吗？
或许 我想太多了。。
可能 年龄越长 顾虑的东西越多 心就随着关闭 不怎么快乐吧。。

Day as normal..

Today seem like a good day, but don't know why, i feel down...

On the way back to my house, i feel the day is not bad..

Along the road, i saw the sky, beach, and the sunset..expecially the sunset..

mmm..I like the moment..

I am not home alone always, my mum and dad will accompany me..

Especially my mom..always ask me this and that..tell me everything that she knew from the newspaper..

But, how come..

Suppose i am not lonely..

May be..

无聊的时候

一直都在探索。。好累哦！

值得吗？
不晓得哦！
不想做笨蛋 不想偏低自己 但却。。可恶！

闷闷的时候 就乱想了
还是去看看戏 逛逛街吧
或许会买到意想不到的好东西 和遇到意想不到的人哦！哈哈

无奈

不想这样 但又能怎样
不想那样 却偏偏这样
好烦是吧？

人总是那样无奈。。。

生活总不会样样顺利 你梦寐以求的人生总不可能百分百实现 必然会有些瑕疵 无奈吧

你认识了位朋友 投缘 好相处的一个人 更成为了好友 但如果经不起考验 也就这样没了 无奈吧

女人都希望 有自己的事业，漂亮的外貌，美丽的身材，爱自己的情人，拥有美好的生活 无奈都难成真

无奈又怎样 生活也一样要过。。不想无奈的过 就得积极的活 脚踏实地 或许不能百分百的实现 但起码也有50%的机会实现大家所梦寐以求的美好人生 不是吗？

Penang Hill

Did something NEW that day at Penang Hill..cycling the two seat'cycles under the rain at 6.30pm evening with Chia Yee only without anybody inside the forest, considered an adventure for us huh..Another thing, We have surrounded by those 'ang mo kau' inside the cable car, felt weird but excited, coz it seem like we are overseas and stay with those ang mo kau. hehe..

谁是你的好朋友？

好朋友的定义是什么？

我不是很明白 有些人为什么 称某些人为好朋友。。

随便叫而已 还是真心诚意把对方当其为好朋友

什么心事都想与其分享 什么话都想告诉他 毫无猜疑

很自在 很舒服 不必猜测 不必迟疑

看见他 就恨不得把所有心事都告知 苦诉

还是 名义上而已 心事重重 却诉不得 因种种的猜疑 不信任导致诉不得

为什么会迟疑。。若你把他当好友看待 而放心得把所有秘密告知一个其实 并不完全把你当好友看

待的人 一个随时都爆你秘密的人 可见原来迟疑是因为怕冒险

但若犹豫太多反而很难找到一个可以诉苦的对象 哪可不是在委屈了自己 委屈到病 好矛盾哦！

到不如把朋友的定义 简单化 或许对大家都是好事

找个愿意聆听你诉苦的人 发泄心情的不满 别让自己受委屈

有人向你诉苦 你就充当聆听者

有事时 找愿意帮你的人帮忙 有人找你帮忙 能帮就帮 以上往来

久而久之 感情或许比想象中还要好 突然间发现你在这世界上又多了个好友了

真所谓路遥知马力 日就见人心

好朋友 就是那么简单 不是吗？。。yeah!

"破镜重圆"

绝对是。。。奇妙

我绝对不是在乱说话 我是真的觉得 这太奇妙了！

写了这一大堆的气话与感受 终究也被当事人发觉到了

你们感受到了吗？感受到那股气了吗？

我想应该感受到了啦 不然就不会正经八百地向我解释 开导我 也顺便教导我了

几个围住我逼供 算是什么啦。。人家怎么说也是会害羞 会不好意思的嘛

你们。。 可真本事哪 原本想写这些来让你们面壁思过的我 竟然被讲得 应该是我要面壁思过 可恶

不过，也对啦 我也应该换个角度来看看这些 以不同的心境来面对这样的相处方式

或许 就像你们所说的 我其实也不那么无价 那么没存在感啦

我也不是麻痹的啦 更不是患了麻痹症 你们的关心 我怎不会感受到呢

好啦 没事啦 希望大家将来会以诚相对 多多包涵大家的不是 好吗？

PS: 奇妙是吧 咱们没吵架 没破口大骂 没发脾气 也没互相讽刺 反而和平的“破镜重圆”了。。哈哈。。真是一椿开心事啊！

不被孤立的代价

这次忍 下次忍 再几次也都默默地忍了
那为何不再多忍一忍 做个名副其实的滥好人呢？
有听说过隔壁的阿婶喊“快爆了 快爆了 粪坑快爆了 不能再等了 老公 快打电话叫人来清一清哪”
没错，就是这个道理。。快爆了 快爆了 我真的不能再忍了 当众被贬低 被嘲笑 被讲得一文不值 还要咧嘴笑一笑 傻傻的跟大家笑在一块 这算是什么 搞气氛吗？为大家枯燥乏味得可怜的日子带来些许余兴吗？ 不然人家就会冷回一句“怎么耍起酷来了” 以让自己好下台是吧？
这简直就是没天理 太过分了嘛。。

那我宁愿被孤立好了。。但是，我能吗？这样的情景 这样的画面 持续了十多年了 我承受得起被孤立的感觉吗？。。我似乎不曾被孤立过 却也时常觉得自己没什么存在的价值 可有可无 当然啦 时常被讲得一文不值 自信也不知几时掉到哪儿去了

老天 每天都磨练着我的忍耐力 脸皮的厚度 也慢慢地摧残了我本有的自信 自尊
难道我需要经过这样的管道来把自己锻炼起来吗？。。唉

A clown

Are you feel happy if peoples talk about you everyday non-stop?

Make fun of you everyday, and they treat it as a kind of entertainment.

Laugh at you or laugh with you? Critic or just make fun of you? You can't even realise it.

Don't you feel so stupid?

What if someday you have changed and doesn't like to be treated as a clown, and wanted to fight back and show your black face whenever they make fun of you again.

BUT, they used to talk with you in this ways, is it too sudden for them to change?

The answer is they will feel not used to it, and choose to not talk with you, or don't even want to response whenever you say anything. Isn't it too obvious?!!

Don't you feel stupid again?

Well, am i a doll?!! no brain? no heart? no feeling?no anger?..

Worsen case is Whenever you try to spell out something, they will said "pls don't say anything",

not been respected at all. Am i an idiot? Am i a clown? and Just worth to be said by others , make fun by others, and don't have authority to say others back?..

Pls don't hurt me!! or else, you will lose a great friend as me. Risk on your own!!

Sound like warning..but..i have no choice, coz i am really angry..

变

最近 我发现自己 好像变了 变得我自己也不认得自己
因很多时候 我的脑袋都空空的 内心也是空空的 就像行尸走肉一样
没有感觉 没有期待
什么是回忆 什么是想念 难道我逐步的退化 患了失忆症了吗？
电脑 是祸首还是心态开始变老了还是。。到底是什么？！！
我才二十四岁呢 怎么可以就想四十二岁一样。

现代的人 现代的生活 有比以前的生活跟精彩吗？ 还是一样的闷？
以前的人天天早起在稻田里干活 或捕捉鱼 回家 睡觉起身 再干活
现代的人呢 也差不了几多 天天到公司上班 下班 睡觉起身 再上班 简直就是枯燥乏味 闷死了
不同的就只是科技的发达 有高楼大厦 有超级市场 统统先进 不须动用到人类的太多劳力来完整某些东西
这样反而造成人类少运动 又吃下许多不健康的食物 因现代的食物都大多有科学药物成分

结论是 现代人都不怎么长命

伤害

最近 收到一封电邮, 有一段 带点忧郁 有点自怜的句子， 如下：

>>如果真诚是一种伤害,
>>我选择谎言;
>>如果谎言是一种伤害,
>>我选择沉默;
>>如果沉默是一种伤害,
>>我选择离开.

Birthday Celebration 4 3x18Feb's gals

My mom plus two closed friends who were borned on 18th of February.
Not a harsh times for me, i quite enjoy the moment preparing all this for them at the same times.
Gift&cakes&small gathering..These are the important stuff we should have for someone birthday..

My mom birthday's gift were bought by me and sis, and let her choose herself..it is a Jade brace bought at HOBJ,Queenbay. Hoping she always healthy and happy all the times.;)
While, my brother is responsible to buy cake on her special day, it is lemon cheese cake bought from bread history..my comment for the cakes is..not very good..erm..

Mom, happy birthday!!(smile until can't close her mouth..hehe)
Jade Brace..(the pic look blur..bad camera?or bad photographer?keke..)


Susan have received quite a lot of gift for this year i think, from our side, from her boy friend, from her family, and from her other friends etc..Her birtday dinner was held 2 days earlier at Hao You, as the main days should belong to her boy fren..hehe..Hao you, the sea food restaurant which stay near the beach, is such a pretty place, especially in the evening. Hoping she felt happy and contented with this year birthday and her birthday wish will become real;)..

Susan, Happy Birthday!!(can't wait to make a wish..hehe)Taking pic with both gift giver..guess what is it?! hehe..Tomei's gift giver is..wong shu fen..kekeke..Gift representer,koe koon yew..a big present shared among he, Raymond, Amber&Jin..

Pretty scent at Hao You seafood restaurant.......wooo......


Amber's birthday sound big for me, and is a kind of practise for me in organizing an event, coz need to call out each of her friends in MOT, i am sure have mis out some of them...hehe..as i just invited those i knew. Hooi Thing have help to reserve 12 seats and get some pre-order menu, others have help to buy blueberry cheese cake from jenny cake house, taste really nice..mmhh..
On the other hand, her boy friend ah jin did a surprise stuff for her without letting her know..really sweet..Must be contented with your birthday lerr this time!!;)...
Amber, Happy Birthday!(look with fresh and happy face)Main present shared among colleagues..Crystal brace named Amber,totally matches with her names,Amber.

Really thanks for all who participate for the birthday preparation and attending the birthday party.

New Year in 2009 Happy Or Not..

My answer is "so so la, not so special every year"..but, i got special visit with my colleagues to our supervisor's house in this year, and got some best friends visit my house in this year as well.

Eating Pizza with my family on 3rd day after new years, coz my sis going to back KL on the 4rd days..

From left is my father, mother,and brother..

My sister look so fair and skinner than me nowaday..i eat too much liao..hii

We visit Bat's caves after poh ling's house..

Before new year, We have a big gathering with our colleagues organized by ms.Amber at Flame, eating steamboat is such a difficult times for me, just the same as full tank also need to add on fuel..Meanwhile, 6rd day after new years, again eating steamboat with my former Schoolmates, another hard times for me..Don't wrong interpret my 'hard' word, hard times is for the eating times, is actually a nice moment gathering together with our friends right?...chat a lot and laugh non stop, it seldom happen when we are alone rite..(If laugh alone, ppl will think you are crazy,kekek)Latest MINT team, We all wearing red shirt on the last working day before Chinese New Year..Before eating..look excited and urge for foods.
After eating..look so tired, seem like just facing food WAR, my tyres comes out d..hii..

During Food WAR!!

LoST wOrld

Let talk about Lost World..

The world that make us lost?!!..

Saturday morning around 10am, i receive an unexpected call from Amber..

"R u interest to lost world at tambun there?"..

"Erm, who will go?, can i bring along my sis?"

"Erm, can also.."

That's it!! We start our journey to Lost World..

We were joking along the journey, and of course, i will start to sing as well..

"la la la..la la la.."

"don't torture our ears, pls.."

"No, i insist to sing..la la la...la la la.."

Is a nice weather along the journey, feeling warm and romantic when look through the window, such a nice scent..

However, once we reach there, ligthing!Storm!..Rain pour down heavily...just kidding..hehe

In fact, it was a rainy day, but not so heavy as what i have mentioned just now..We still can play those games.

Of course, it not a problem for us to play around with the tiny rain..

Well, We play the storm-rider, cliff racer, tube raider which is bit more challenging than otherss..

We visit the tiger valley, Jungle wave bay, adventure river as well as tambun hot spring..

An small accident happened when we have went through the adventure river..

When 3 gals sitting on top of the tube with shape "8", and floating along the river, 2 guys(jin and zhi lian) suddenly took off the tube..I am aware of their cheaky's act, and have ready to balance up my body once my whole body reach the water..

My first conscient once i could balance up my body and stand properly, is look after my sis and amber, felt better when i saw my sis could stand up safely...another one, Amber, oh my god, her face is dip inside the water and can't stand straight, and it seem not right..
Her head has hit the floor and her face was kicked by my sis..hehehe..poor gals..
She felt fainted after that, but getting better after rest for a while.

We intend to cancel our next destination to ipoh parade mall after the incident, however, this hyperactive gal insist to continue shop at ipoh parade mall...hiii..

We reach our home at 1 something mid night, i slept away once reach my bed..

close my eyes, mumbling with "mm..such an unexpected trip'..

Siau Hun Birthday ;)..

Last few week till recent week, what i have done?

Mm...nearly forgot..Siau Hun's birthday preparation, Christmas eve, Lost world trip at tambun..

Few day before Siau Hun's birthday, I was in KL and have bought a photo frame as her birthday gift, it look normal, but i still bought it just because it is full surronding with pretty small seashell.. I recall last time Siau Hun look excited when she found pretty seashell at the beach, this is the reason i bought the frame.

One day before Siau Hun's birthday, I accompanied Amber went to shopping mall and bought the gift which is shared among our colleagues. We were arguing sometimes before buying gift to Siau Hun, hehe..eg. "No, Siau Hun won't like this kind of gift", "But, she need it", "Her parents sure have bought for her already".

On her birthday, i can't wait to show the gift to her once i reach office in the morning, Because i have big confident that she sure will like this special frame. Till now, i still not very sure whether she really like it or just simply said like it. Truthfully, do you like it?

After having our breakfast at cafeteria and back to workplace, suprisingly, a piece of tasty yam cake are placed beside Siau Hun's lap top. This is a cake given by our boss, poh ling, specifically to her. She share her tasty yam cake with us. I taste twice secretly..hehehe..
Lunch time, We celebrate her birthday with a chocolate cheese cake, and treat her thailand food as well. Got me, Amber, Hooi thing, Pei Shie, Koon Yew and our boss, Poh Ling.

she have open the gift one by one. Oh Ya, forgot to tell, Two gift were bought, one is Thermo bottle and another is Cowy money saving bottle. Useful and pretty, perfectly match with Siau Hun's requirement.

At the night of Chrishmas eve, I went out with Seok Pheng, Siau Hun, Bee Yee, Chia Yee and my sis, at gurney plaza there. Meanwhile, both of my best fren hang around with their own new boy friends at gurney plaza there, and we accidentally met with Amber's couple, she look so pretty that day. No doubt, it was a beautiful night, gurney there are crowded with people, especially couples. Those singles,us..seem happy at the night, but sure will feel the emptiness in another way when we saw lovely couples walked away pair by pair.

How about lost world trip??..feel don't want to write at the moment..because i want to post up the related photos as well. Will post it after receiving those photos.;)

MuseuM-MuseuM

Seok Pheng and I, both penang gals decide to visit our Uni best fren at Alor Star this weekend. Both Alor Star gals, Siau Hun and Connie busy serving both of us..intend to make them exhausted..kekeke;)..kidding.

Well, in the first place, we plan to visit 2 main location, which is Gunung Keriang and Museum Padi. But at the end, we have visit 2 more museum, One is the place that Tunku Abdul Rahman stay before/Bapa Merdeka, another location is the kampung where Mahathir was borned and stay in his younger age. Imagine hard...what they are doing at their own house for the past decade.. such a memoriable place. Unfortunately, we have been forbidden to take picture inside both museum which contain of all the memoriable stuff.

We are able to take picture at Museum Padi only. Have a look!!

Kedah, a simple place, for those who like to have a calm and relaxing life...sound more suit to the old people.. a great hometown but a ...travel place.(fill in the blank pls..;)

However, this is the place where the great peoples borned...eg.Tunku Abdul Rahman, Mahathir, Lee xin Jie and so on.. such a amazing place right.

We have a long chit-chat session..For the whole conversation, laughing is the bigger portion..

there will be a short debate as well, can i called it as 'debate" or "suggestion"? not sure..whatever it is. I felt would like to be neutral, if there is a debate..
No comment at all, holding with Two main theory is enough "No one will have the right to judge other ppl or stuff by seeing its cover only."& " No one able to get along well with everyone"..

Well, just share what i hope to share...cheer ;)..